What's the purpose of waking up everyday, to wait for time for lunch and then dinner and then eventually to sleep?Many people do things because they are told to, because textbooks say so, because that's what their parents do. Few people question. Whys are forbidden. Those who question are bad people, aggressive, not compliant. Men are more forgiven for "misbehavior", females are very much condemned.
What's the purpose of my job?
What's the purpose of travelling?
What's the purpose of taking photos?
What's the purpose of posting on social media?
What's the purpose of a hundred different other things....
I have been a lone ranger in this journey of searching my own purpose. For everything I do, I breathe, I think. Very few people understood how that's causing depression inside me. I need a purpose. My purpose of being alive. What's the point of following 5 million other people's way of living without knowing the reason? I don't live because I want to be the same as others. Zombies...
This person I came across, ditched her successful career and her comfort zone for a new city, at the age of 40, single, in search for excitement. To feel her pulse, to see new people and experience life in a different way. Despite all that surrounding noises that stopped her, cautioned her, warned her, scared her for being who she can be, how she can be so much more. She did not surrender to be the same as others. She chose her path. Off she went, to Paris.
I am impressed, and I want that excitement to flow in my blood. To discover my own experiences. To paint my own lifestyles, to live my way of living. That's my purpose. However it might be, in what way, or however.
I am not quite there yet, I am on my way. It's getting there. It doesn't matter when I start, how I start.
I am not comfortable feeling overly comfortable. I will not stop questioning, for this is the one thing I truly care about. To question the status quo. To constantly push myself into the unknowns, fix more problems and turn to a new page. I can be so much more than who I am today. I can do so much more for not just myself, but the mother earth. Why am I sitting in this enclosed room, wasting time over meaningless jealousies, sorrows, insecurities, fears and unnecessary conflicts?
I have no time for losers, nor I want to die a loser. That's my mantra.